Beginning of the end

I am not sure whether this a good luck sign for me or not. the time spending with CD help me to re-examine my own marriage, very basic things such as : Dose my wife love me? dose she have an affair? do I need to concern about she's whereabouts? the true reason why she marry me? and the final thing , will she willing to stay hungry with me if I am not able to support her living standard anymore? the 3rd party's observation can really keep me thinking. and I am kind of not in the loop of thinking about me own marriage for 2 decades. and this result to a bad financial situation, wores