Feeling and emotion

Hubert give me his look and I am kind of hurt -- don't trouble me is the message .

Samantha is working on extend contract for Forum Works and she forget we have a 13:00 appointment today . Thanks God we managed to smooth things done in 10 minutes before Hubert's coaching session .

A - Zone to Hubert is a business and he request for solution - break even is in his radar ... I don't like to pose pressure and numbers onto myself - it's life and it's a 4.8 millions 2 years agreement .

Mission :

1. Coaching twice a month 

2. Shelin team Facilitation 3 times a year 

3. Monthly a zone management meeting 

4. Amba monthly update .

This is how I am going to allocate time from tomorrow .

Last day of 2015

After session with Hanes :

- learning how to conduct a positive self talk 

- knows the difference between wits and wisdom 

- no to invest too much how in projecting the image only affect oneself 

Moving to buy my star war trilogy 1-6 and plan to watch it over new year 

Wake up 5 in the morning

Don't know why but didn't waste my time :

1. Harverd study at Ted talks for happy and healthier life 

- social connection 

- good and close relationship 

- good relationship protect body and brain 

2. Steve's homage to lemmy - passing lead vocal of Motörhead 

3. The Norm e books : simple 60 pages and the correspondence in between 

4. Send my New Years greeting to nowhere ... 

Happy 2016... And beyond 

Sky - talents fly and Daniel / Steven

Steven met sky via my intro and said : I am your fan - what a compliment . 

Sky taught me to give Hurlem a free ELAC system as it will deliver a better platform for next session .

Sky offer a solution for Talents Fly - and this is a commitment I can't escape .

So meanings is achive something you can't be done in your life ..

My Ferrari ride

Agree to join the ride with daniel to Tainan , one for attending Ryan's mothers farewell ceremony and second to do a longer update with Daniel / like a personal retreat - we begin our ride on his Farrari 430 at 5:30 am and return home by 15:15 pm - 10 hours long talk in the car. It's good to connect on a totally relax environment and to share before 2016:

1. Simply business result on 2015 and bonus distribution .

2. 2016 revenue and operation summary.

3. Talent fly update and how we can do it under 1.5 millions on 2016.

4. Product endorsement with sky and Harlem and how it develops

5. Vietnam initiative and what do forum works position itself ?

6. Potentials investment of open limit Germany Internet security firm and role forum works can perform after 

7. Sea dragon chapter and forum initiative for him

8. European investment mindset and strategy 

9. Meal with chi Hun during Chinese New Year 

10. Childs and education update 

11. ELAC development and his fund management experience 

12. Exchange idea on taking and give back 

13. Hunters house buying potential 

14. How we do our Farewell to the world 

15. Midlife crisis about him ...

16. Do the congee together 

17. Having 3 coffee on the road 

Lulu's second book

Come in VVG chapter the second time and really enjoy ambience here : what I did ?

- a good cupcake and sparking water 

- finishing reading lulu's " my taitung dream "

- reviving good news from Meilijg 

Lulu's my taitung dream tell a good story - a story about find myself back it's a circle to the original point - I am happy to see her transforming , what I found is the

1. The low potential of breast cnscer 

2. Living in Taitung you don't follow schedule and plan 

3. Accompany 3 good characters to their terminal stage give you the best lesson about living and dying .

4. Change of environment means change of mindset 

5. Change is outward looking go behavior , transforming is inward searching and becoming who you are .

 Now I have more confidence to talk to her :: dear lulu 

Simon said

The first 90 minutes is not impressive , like a bombing to my brain , tried to keep myself awake and drink up all my coffee . The conversation is waste of time .

Last 30 minutes is worthy , when he touch upon how to make a sustainable cycle for non profit and this is what " talents fly " need to address .

- the hands shaking 

- the angel team 

- the volunteer group 

- the pitching cycles 

And then " life academy " surface , Simon explain how he utilized it's method to improve the world and how " look by yourself - look at the place by yourself " trigger me how I should take this angel approach a zone . 

Volunteer : facing frustration ; adapt changing environment ; sharing how to improve next - 3 benefits for become volunteer . A good take away today .

As for going back to life academy offen, I will hold and contribute more to others 

Beginning in mountain climbing

Inspired by singer jeng Hui - complete one concert , you reduced one chance to perform-- for me , you don't know how long you can climb , do you often while you can.

Feesknomic - the chess burg  story : fast food foodie and junk food junkie - and the carolet count begin by New York and traveling around .. 

Stretch at top of the hill and doing my hand shake following sutra playing . Isn't it good ? 

Donation

I check my insurance policy and find out can't bail out for the first 5 years , total commitment in investing is 3 millions NT, by reviewing it , I realized I have to keep it for 5 years as it value much higher than , consider is my other retirement fund ( up to 65 years old ) 

Retuning mc fees from himalaya foundation and turn it to donation , may said at the ceremony , guest are surprised to know my voice is so good - I  mean , easy to accept and embrace .

Redding my e book download from city library . The life of extradiary sychologist are story of suffering and pain . What a good reading .

Promise to take the ride to Tainan with Daniel on Wednesday . Enjoy his super car then .

Ray :

1. Waiting is another option . Don't push yourself to the corner .

2. If you don't have options , you have shoulder , if you have options , you grow wings .

3. Your new year resolution in 2016

4. Freedom of choice is the free spirit .

5. Nice pizza - really ... But it's too rich to me . 

Exercise today

" I am doctor "

- since when you commit to be a doctor ( aggressive or progressive )

- why become a Doctor ( motivation )

- how long you've perform this role and how old are you ?

- your childhood dream ? Thinks about change ?

" talk in 3 mindset "

- willing to take risks 

- tell nothing but the truth 

- share your feeling and emotion .

Ya Tong taste of forum at regent

6 turn out : can't really know their name and begin with an interested ice breaker : I am a doctor ... Chu Ren is the first person who raise his hand at my workshop said " I can't do it " in public - I spend 20 minutes with him at the lounge but not the workshop rooms ...we connect indeed .

Chi Hun is surprise to see the result - he can't realty figure out how I can taim such a smart group and I can do it in the morning ? 

It's a bold test and I done my " human test " my way .

Fooling morning and sleeping afternoon

Decide go for sang ling campaign concert at freedom plaza - a symbolic thrine for anti authtotism .

 Freddy is good in campaign , I have no doubt he will win the election and become the musician turn legislator next year . I am here to check how's the politics marketing take place in Taiwan.

 Nothing to do in the afternoon after my 2 hours sleep .

 Morning drag by my fantasy . Keep browsing those ad on social media and try not to make the call .. What cause the brain distribute the stimulus ? 

Messes Wang , father and Christmas Eve in Taichung

Done an average good workshop with transglobe , release 2 days from work and Taipei , Meilijg and I decided go to douliu check how is my farther and stay overnight at Taichung .

 No surprised surprise : Wang go and stayed with my father , father tried to explaining who she is and how she is great to help him - this is an adultery and no need to explain it . I am ok but reluctant to act happy - this is a if you take my shoes scenario ... Father want to conduct surgery even dr Cheng give him his professional opinion - see what happen after 2015. 

  Done 3 stew pork rice for last 2 days - it's a dream come true , consider my health condition , I can't be too indulgent to enjoy fat and oil food - but it's a desire and I can't help but to try it .

 Chio Wu Dao is really a land mark in Taichung - walking along and you feel like you are somewhere outside Taiwan . Some creative staff street vendor enjoy wine at the grass while selling their product ... The life they enjoy might exceed them cubit life in any office .

 Sound was home yesterday , without tell us he will be home on Thurday and workout check if he keep his keys to home , he have to take all the consequence yesterday , I know it's a lesson to him but to him probably it no a a serious lesson . 

No expectations is good expectation

There's nothing call " over preparation "

The 3 effictive communication need more on site practice :

1. Self assessment : can be more precise on each score and provide a Chinese translation .

2. Feedback need a prior notification but it will the put all participatant in a " I am here for training and assignment base "

3. Feed foreward " themes " design should be done earlier ... And save time for practice 

Do good :

1. ---- is a life learning and it require life practicing do trigger emotion and vulnaviality .

2. Feedback sharing for : one you can accept as the blind spot is good 

3. One and mutual vulnaviality take the trust to different level 

When they ask more , I know I achieve somethings here. 

Turn out today :

Perry ( morning ) , Steven ( afternoon ), Allen , chi chi , Sharon , Dick , daniel , Sophia , Lara , Frank , Danny , Vincent , tiger. 

Tip

I tip 1000 and surprise someone - importent is direct relate to confidence ..

KC sent me home yesterday after the Dino / Hubert session 

- KC need to fix his arm and check his brain 

- wine / a test to friendship ...

Said to learn Amy Hsui is half parelize and Ivy Liu resign from Regent .. 

Coffee morning and lunch with Sherwood

Lunch with Sherwood is great :

1. Knowing young talent like him more 

2. Create a platform for him and William / Michael 

3. Potentials elite graduate vs elite next generation platform 

4. Change to learn what design thinking is. 

Morning coffee :

1. E Sun yang : lovely young man and maybe it's a good vicheal for me to do so assess management .

- condition : first 6 years for interest only ( or even longer ) to justify my insurance investment 

- test how much loan can obtain from this bank ? And earn our credit line ..

2. A zone 

- for fu it's a news for him . I don't want him to feel surprise when my consultant agreement signed 

- talents fly integrate resource is fine and better 

- incubation and design is a good approach in the resource integration development . 

G

What's wrong with G: 

- high pay 

- package deal 

- access to information not under his authorization 

- not aware of the political environment 

What's wrong with A:

- believe is old formula in making profit 

- bias in people Managment and leadership 

- no alignment between brothers 

- 2nd tier talent running the company and dream to be tier one game player 

Counting back : from 2011 I was engaged with them , and what's wrong with me ?

1. If CM can't include , the tie can't be solved 

2. Pamper the younger one but not really direct him 

3. Didn't spend decent time in bright coo and ceo . 

The surprise movie and the surprise adagio for strings

Want to the movie " The surprise " last night and so surprise to hear the melody " adagio for strings by Samuel barbers " the opening songs choose for Mr. Han's memorial ceremony today . An coincident and a meant to be .

 I am not well after the massage before dinner . Today is the big day for Mr. Han and those who live to witness this , I take a hot bath and my cold medicine also.

 Deco today is with elegance , for use one time and dispose after use is kind of waste , if Mr.Han can determine before pass away , what will he willing to change ? 

To-day and up-day

Sea dragon forum 7 workshop :

1. I bring the wrong and old file and need to fix the slides in 30 minutes . It's a pressure test .

2. Ken do have a concern about 3 members and after one day workshop . He have a different opinion .

3. Who's here ? Glendy ; Richard ; Ken ; Eddie ; LIN ; Chris ; voon ; Leo . 

Yesterday's take away :

1. VVG chapter experience 

2. Sample shopping at newwide experience 

3. Samuel barber " adagio for strings " digesting 

4. Star war opening day with Meilijg 

5. Meiling's yes I love you commitment 

Rehearsal

Alfred makes all the different, when adagio for string plays everyone one moved . And my way is a good background music for Mrs. Han's " his life and his way " Eulogy for Mr. Han 

So , I am in sad mood also , the overall program on rehearsal went ok , what we need to do ( for me )

1. Learn the adagio break around 5 minutes and at the break ask everyone to take there seats .

2. A good opening before introduce Mr. Cheng 

3. Something to say about Mrs . Han before playing the 3 minutes ( adjust ppt ) eulogy.

4. Bridge before the 15 minutes ( his life & his way ) 

5. Supplyment on other enterprise who is not here with us 

6.  Trigger when playing " my gratitude hearts " 

7. Introducing guest on first 3 line but not delivery speech 

8. Guest speaker one by one 

9. Introduce little sister 

10. Introduced lawyer Chen for closing application 

11. Announce the ending and remind go take the 2 books as a memorial gift . 

Assist

Ho's movie is made for himself , not to reach mass audience, if this purpose served , then it's fine.

So you need more than one interpreter to help you understand his movie before going to the movies .

It's hard for me .. Really.

Little demon / devil

It control my body and having me to move my though towards the action for continue my bliss in fulfill my fantasy , I tried so hard to resist and I am hanging there .

 The lesson for coaching this morning 

1. D : from nothing and everything is flat to an extend version of everything -- we take one and half hours - my learning , it not about physical territory or imagine boundaries but the mental wall - it's a smooth ride or headwind ? A leader can make the difference.

2. S : trap in another misfit investment , according to D , it can be more than one , when share the wedding ceremony movie and how grandpa took case grandma , I can see his eyes wet .

3. J : information to receive or accept . Learn what consensus is ... This is the key .

  I spend 4 and half hours of my fully charged energy and now prepare for memorial ceremony ...

Reading old blog

In order to find where I can access my previous memories with Mr. Han - I stop to read some old blog between 2010 - the year I am fully exit from Himalaya , the 2 months window - lulu and Stantly offer my job and how I end up with Spirox for the learning period - I need go check the LCPC one as well ... 

It's a good night last night : going out for sushi dinner with wife - walking around shin Shen south road and small alleys for 2 hours and talk on the walk .

 Finalized how to co works with Simon Cheng - chairman of tai shin charity foundations - the big opening should be fine now as I am doing the MC works 

 Preparing my moderator speech - no really the speech but the bridges for coming big day ... I told lawyer chen do send my farewell regards to Mr. Han tomorrow .

Highlight of everyday from Nov. 28

1. Nov 28 : learning Mr. Han passed away , it shift my planning for CFF meetings 

2. Nov 29 : Maryanne & Helen - W hotel dim sum lunch follow a wonderful Tamsui trip : Mackey cookie ; lovely Angelo dinner 

3. Nov 30: Maryanne & Helen for first half day to Yangminshan national park - cattles and YANIC sweet shop . Afternoon : michael and Estelle join for Misui Japanese lunch following She Fen sky lantern wishing .. The amazing massage at master Tang before welcome dinner at A cut welcome Ronda / Kris

4. Dec. 1: puyuma to Huailen and ling way bus to Yao Chung lunch . Chochi coffee then check in andente - dinner 

5. Dec 2: morning to cidel hunter school with rich experience - done indigenous lunch and then move to Shakadang trail and all the wow begins . Check in the dream hotel : silk place taroko and crest the high moment at the dinner 

6. Dec. 3 : morning hiking go both temple and chapel before the facial tatoo private mussume tour - explore the spectacular BUROWA and done lunch at YUKI's gallery . -- straight home .

7. Dec 4: first meeting for Mr.Han after getting everone and rejoin one day from da Sou zen then the she Yan restaurant ..fortunes telling , support from Ken and Sam and Minguls before the welcome reception at Mud bar

8. Dec 5. Day 1 opening : Steve Vai video help me and then I skip all the workshop perpararion for Memorial ceremony . Returns for dinners at VVG thinking , a wonderful setting and welcome from Royce .

9. Dec 6: a great U theatre zen drumming experience . Skip afternoon and return for the blind date dine around : Eugene / Chris at Taipei happening ; Sam / David at David's house ; David / Sunny at kitchen 28; Alfred do it alone at 1010; Royce / Ken at old bottom up , Hunert / Philip at couple Hakka private kitchen ..another night to remember 

10. Dec 7: full day presence and powerfully circle in closing : with tears , brief musume tour and great closing dinner at silk place national palaces work English puppy show - create many fun , David drivers an emotional opening and we didn't stop here , shelin night market is a bonus before closing .

11. Dec 8: early meeting for Mr han and pick up Dori to national history musume , the lovely Lotus pond cafe sharing and receive Dori's vulnaviality . Lunch at Xiang She is so great and follow afternoon check in before dinner with Hochen & Hubert , Angeli - good dinner 

12. Dec 9: Matthew tour to VVG hideaway and a bonus tour to space cycle . Dinner at Yu tong fan - Carrie restaurant and a long story telling night with a surprise : having Dori deliver a 4 hours forum something next day / work a 2000 USD fees ... Nights to pick up my fight as said by daniel .

13. Dec 10. Go to doctor Cheng before breakfast with Dori by 9:30 ... 

Jon stop 

A few things

1. As Daniel said : pick your fight , am I have the courage even to fight ? Dose father's health condition and where to take the surgery in Taipei a fight to pick ?

2. Mr. Han : if he can , will he insist on a grand memorial ceremony ? Will Mrs Han and relatives appearance a must ? And how he will say about the living fall in a political whatever ? 

3. Dori : why I put what you did , you have before who you are ? Why we exchange biz card before any conversation ? Why we weight others and ourselves in such a system ? Who taught us to measure people this way ? Why Matthew tease me ? 

4. CFF : you can't please everyone , so you choose who you really wish to make them happy and take it as the benchmark then follow it .. People can be different but don't be difficult . They said they come because of you . You should filter them , there are always hidden agenda not surface yet . 

5. English : my English improve or now they get to understand me more without language ? Am I use it more and have more confidence than before ?

6. Janet : well , as you wish to provide your generosity , you should not begin to think why .

7. Non stop service : this is a test of mental and physical endurance , I am not saying I am good about it but this is a try at age 55 , I only need to do it once. 

CFF host experience

The best thing to do is to skip class once you prepare for the whole meeting - and I have the experience this time .

 I return class by 4:00 pm and finish my ending facilitation " Human Test " and join the second night dinner at VVG thinking - an alternative restaurant booked after liuli cafe can't really deliver services .

 Welcome reception at mud bar is fine . Achoi provided variety of choices and they went for 101 themselves .

 I mimic Jeff's " I can't because " to escape from the expectation for taking man to bar or night club - and simply told everyone on the bus -- I am Cinderella and it bail me out from the expectation 

 Nan Man traditional market tour this morning went well . It end up 6 join - Mo / Amir and other 3 sister wives - helen / patience and Maryanne .

 Marryanne said my " turtle " feeling back to 3 or 4 years ago when we meet in London for the TF training ..

 The U theatre zen drumming is also good , short but inspiring and I am now skip my class again ... 

Too rich the life is , too busy to post your blog

Eco tour ended well , we were so lucky to have good weather follows us and the connection and bonding is there . KC and Angeli been good helper , Wanda is too young to pick up small yet sensetive things , maybe I am even worst back to her age.

 Andente is good for great experience , silk place taroko is where you should be once in your retreat .

 One day tour is a bigger tour and Thanks to KC / Angeli over doing many trivial things for me and no to mention Sam / Ken come all the way to support me .

  Saw Angela at Mud bar tonight , she greet and say : it's good to have CFF meeting in taiwan , I don't like to travel  and it seems Taiwan have nothing to do with her .. This is a very strange feeling.

  Dori / Amir / Mo / Barry / Norm said the same : we came because of you , I am fortunate to have friends like them and bless to comfortably doing what I love snd wants now .. It's an experience , and another great experience to be a host for international event.