3 things me and my coachee need to change

1. Exciting in GOAL setting .

2. Planning AHEAD.

3. Brave to say NO.

Make up wedding anniversary and non stop working

Try to do some nice vendor food , but no water make it impossible this morning .

A lesbian partner notice my spot on them and do me F words 

No way to do anything but going home and work on " Steve Vai " project 

Do myself twice in the evening - Meilijg go for exercise and come home by 11:00 pm.

No water - no drinks and no shower 

It's a bad day even I am touch by a local documentary .

I am so angry

The anger last for at least one hour - sound's manner cause me mad and his mother play the nice mom get me even anger -- I feel the upset for so long and what I did after :

1. Go up to my room and change cloth 

2. Bring my patty cash out from the desk drew 

3. Go down the stair and told Meilijg how angry I am and how I am not happy about this ugly situation 

4. I told her I won't be at home for high moon festival family reunion 

5. I still breath the anger toward bus station 

6. Got on bus number 606 - retire service hospital is the final destination .

7. Meilijg call when I am on the bus and she told me how I taught her go do should apply to myself -- 

8. Meiling told me sound is too sense of about I am reluctant to give him hug when he got home on Friday - I reply is he is so sensetive , why can he take  parents role and behavior better ? Anger didn't go away .

9. I change my mind reluctantly and get off at Kuang Kung 

10. I walk to Broadway Cenimex and buy 3 tickets for the 13:20 movie " my little youth "- this is the movie I really don't want to see but always on meilijg's list to watch 

11. Call back to Meilijg and ask her go bring sound to theater before 13:10 .

 My anger didn't go away and I am writing this blog to come up with my self - reflection -

Tomorrow will be our official 25th wedding anniversary - it it didn't happen 25 years ago , sound won't born to the earth and we won't create such an unhappy conflict this morning - to solve it or to celebrate it - it's all up to you .

 My anger is not gone yes , I can only be silence - This is what I want to behave now ...

Ho An + Daniel Ho

She Yu Wei / Shu family + Hochen / Yung Feng + David Du = you meet friends at a clear target event .

Ken Yang + honey Ma remind me what Ken said : we may not getting married .

I saw so many friends come for the show , I guess most of them get free admission and some of them non stop talking over the show - I don't know what to say but feel sorry for artist and organiser .

 Music can be freely but can be limitation as well - aboriginal music in Taiwan share too much similarly - without re-arrangement , you can't really inject your feeling / blending your emotion to the stream ... 

 Am I a by-stander or an audience with less involvement ? 

I almost forget

1. I own dicky 3 millions and James sun 2 millions ( ? )

2. I wrote a goal setting rule and make it on my calendar but loosely check it.

3. Zen meditation begin , but I forget how the hands / palm posture should be.

4. I promise myself do a diet and body weight controls. 

5. Spend time with father before it's too late : and I am kind of reluctant to take action.

6. My book writing plan : making friends

7. Next year customer approach 

She Men Ting

More than one gay partner meet and play at this park and I can see it clear - old movie park and homo heaven 

Jason / ? / Alec ; Kelly & Alan

" no 2 " is the place Jason pick for our casual conversation with Alec - Kelly and Alan run this place and will run the other place owned by Jason's family :

- Kelly will support hui Liu in distribution on orgain product 

- Jason have higher passion to see Steve Vai than his son Alec - EVO can be arrange next year 

- mom ask Alec behalf well - non stop reminding 

- Alec didn't want to go to huilian but the window for sound check on 16 is a good encounter 

- Nelson is the boss in hotel biz 

- couple's outing still have vancsncy 

- I brought back a lot organic food production . 

See chew of golden stones

Bought books and out and meet chew - his office is up stairs ! He asks what did I buy - the old Chinese wisdoms saying and the new " study of humor "

I don't recal his participation on tpo outing - what a bad memories - he details told me who I sit and how I behalf on the bus --- not the memories I keep .

Meilijg calls for many times - I am the one  to smooth her uncomfortable about sound's bad behavior - treat her like a deiver - 

I don't know if I need to record all the " down side " of sound and fruit - do I need to remember it or to Leave it for them ? To ink their regret ? I don't know . If diary is not for doing this - keep the fresh part of your life - the extream good and bad ... Am I right ? 

Coaching still

First 2 lines to H:

1. Past don't equal to Future .

2. If one don't help himself , no one else can .

Then the defense and offense begin - it create obstacle in communication , if this is boundary , I can accept it , if this is the wall , it's hard to climbe .

I honestly express but not explain or debate until things can be talked . A zone is not an option for us - reporting relationship will ruin the coaching base and I am not in the right Positon to turn around things not determined by me.

The worst scenario - a good friend , better scenario - coach with reward , even better scenario - life coach with high rewards .... For this I need to purify my mind .

Gou Yuang response

Even it's short and for 48 hours window , when you saw him writing : to learn from you - you connect and you inspire 

Pope France bent down at st. Patrick cathedral

I watch live from cnn this morning and feel so touched - pope bent down even he can't really stand still too long - he is people's Pope and a Christine reformer I believe. 

How lucky those been invited to cathedral - a once in a life time experience .

I like it so much this morning : past doesn't equal to future ... 

Every moment you capture can be as precious as holing Pope's hand. 

Do muscle the 3 times

Meilig is so irrated by the slugge construction - it took more than 2 months and seems like a never ending story , maybe my interpretation of Chi course her even anger - from last night until this morning , this is really bothering us.

Father came home for clinic - his bone is fading - at the age of 94, what else you wish for ? Walk without stalk , living without care helper - I never want to know if there's any regrets to him at his current life . It's no point to extend anyone's bucket list .. Really .

Fix at o so the 3rd time - the pain area never cause from the pain area - physician Wang teach me 2 simply stretch exercise 

- feet on the stairway : 15 seconds change fees for another 15 seconds 

- arms on the wall - 45 degree flat on the wall and turn your body to strength muscle .

Feel like not attend public event , so I cancel the new members presentation session this afternoon , no really have something more important , just don't want to .

 Asking fruit for her class this semester and ask her not to skip any class - this is the basic request I should do.

Dinner with Nhan and Nina

Son and daughter in law of Thien - my forum brothers in Vietnam . The first impression of taiwan to young Vietnamese is quite good and this is how we begin our conversation :

1. Take the bus and MRT only , spend 5 days in taipei .

2. Enjoy quality food with affordable price 

3. Clean and design city to them 

4. Liberal and socialism country , free spirit floating.

5. Question : how you see Chiang Kai shek ? Answer : well , I am not so familiar with him ..

6. Family business : always a tag of war before agree on taking business biz - pycology major turn sociology major and business minor .

7. Well , how I study : 20% first few pages , 10% middle and 20% final chapters.

8. It's not how our parent pave the road , it also depend on how we try.

9. We earn and spend what we earn when traveling .

10. With Nina : hours schedule : so transparent and for 3 years , never one Queral .

11. One day , your son will know .and you are not a bad father 

 We spend 3 hours at STAY and thanks for Jerry Chu who offer a great French cuisine experience and the lovely desert plate .

Who contribute most and what's the main event

Steve become a moving target among friend / resource / Chapters - WPO ; YPO and YNG .

The theme is " from zen to rocking roll " and the only show case is located at Cloud Gate : the close to 100 attendee performance / dialogue / interaction is and will be the highlight .

I should well mange the time Steve in town , not to exposure to target audience before D day . To reconnect to our theme and where we put our resources ( artist / venue ) , it's clear to see I should not direct Steve to other places and meet up with other people .

The deficit is another issue , no and way behind international participants cause to the red - I am fine with this potential lost but I don't know why those rich and famous hold the same mindset - maybe his draw the line of who is rich and who's not .

Hochen update

Always inspiring and fun. And about today :

1. Syria refugee and mobility change landscape .

2. Elite Reading club to support cabinet in define / refine national development policy .

3. Aj and his role in propaganda 

4. Anti-establishment and new way to liaison with rich and famous 

5. Macau as pilot for reaching out MRT TAIPEI - David Lie & Lu Cha 

6. After school caring 

7. Elder care 

8. Film study : Wild Tale ...

Yu from business week taiwan

He was a clinic schyatric and learn more about phycology than most of the jourist.

Yu make an appointment with me try to expore the potential to become executive coach / facilitator .

I am not puring cold water on his head but to share my authentic experience - how I get to where I am now and who / why I am trust to perform what I do.

It's a life model question - as a life : executive coach - supporting others is the main mission or you mag said nature calling - wherhee it can support your own business model is another question - dancing metaphor apply : one foot on the ground and on foot in the air .

 I review my definition for passion to him : the point where your talent shake hand with your calling .

  As a facilitator - you exercise both brain constantly - you listen and you empathy , you dive in and pull out -- 

 Practice is the key to mastery : you see a coach when people said you are . 

Walking out of house in fast pace

I don't know how to walk side by side with mom so when learning we are about to leave home at the same moment , I push myself and walk faster pace then usual .

Down the small hill to the Main Street , as usual , I will see the mansion house keeper at the door and as usual , we will greet each other with a nod and smile - normally I did it first - I perform the routin this morning as well - even on a quick pace to keep more distance with my mom.

This is a strange feeling - nice to others but reluctant or feel uncomfortable to do it for my family - I don't feel peace and I don't have a solution ( or don't want to do anything about it ) 

Dilemma in coaching today

- caught in between is a nature happen ofttn when working in family biz - professional need to adapt it 

- partner / spouse / shareholders role mix in running a big company - you are run into people issue all the time.

- what is a convincing threat and how a calculate risk can take the consequence ?

- what If the difference come from the top and not influence by others ? 

- please help me and let's not fail it here.

- communication is more difficult than you think , don't reply on information only ( mail / message / report )

One day for attendee and 50 minutes for family

1. I came home late due to delay of the flight. By 11:30 pm Meijig share her feeling about our children with red eyes , I am really tired and want to go to bed as quick as I can - and she said : you can't even spare 30 minutes with me ?

2. Victor / George / Raymond share the same : I am the person trigger them to be vaulnable - shed the tears so simply in front of me - winning trust is a blessing and a gift too . 

3. V master zseng yen taught about chan ( zen ) : your happy or suffer this life is cause by previous lives - with good and bad karmas - so just " accept it ; handle it ; let go it " 

- if you keep the authentic mindset for doing good , even there is limited financial reward , you will gain true happiness and had a harmony life which money can't buy .

4. Too many why and you perform too much analytics brain - then human touch dilute .. 

Ugly Taiwanese in Sanzeng

They takes so loud in the airline VIP lounge like in no man land - speaking Taiwanese dilects just to prove them are from Taiwan , no matter how long you live in sengzen or cultivate to its customers , you just show all the VIP guest how ugly Taiwanese is :

- wearing slipper 

- short pans 

- eat / drink and take our food

- taking over the phones yelling at people who works for you .

I am disappoint to see the uplifting human quality of life in Taiwan still a long way to go....

And when boarding : you both sitting next to me 

YEN sengzen

Because " saving the normal " I didn't complain on any last minute change :

1. From moderator development to fundamental 

2. Build in 4SFE To the large group 

3. Convert all document to Mandarin 

4. Change the start time 

5. Located in low budget hotel 

6. Not exact the workshop layout and equipment 

And it went well :

- senior attendee : michael Lu / William Su / victor / Michael / Grorge Chew / Jeff / Raymond / Richard / Gary / Ellen / trump 

- new as I recall : Terrence / Mark / Ecoh / Tony / Hubert / Tina / crystal / 

New things :

1) the change cycle test : 7 days to complete and test your willingness / action and executions 

2) 4SFE : exercises break up to 4 teams 

3) life changing choice 

DDM and bank withdrew ticket

DDM experience :

- Ko Yuang is a good resource and get the picture of " informal " " casual " approach 

- I am appointed to be the moderator for the event ( dialogue )

- finally , I obtain my orden name " chuang Wei " today 

- an YPO only experience in place 

Bank:

- second time I leave in on the table 

- I didn't take the lesson and not been serious about it 

- what to explain today ?

Self Awaeness :

- never truly regret 

- never ever pray for wishes 

Sam :

- speak up and speak out 

- follow your orden name 

- as traveling resource next year 

Fixing my waist pain

O so is the treatment clinic ? Introduce and appoint by jerry - I went for my pilot treatment - the physician didn't touch where my pain come from but to adjust the mucle on my right leg - painful but works .

I need to follow 3 more and I have the confidence it will work out perfectly .

What refrain me from learning and what I do

Musul pain cause me to take break at SEE trip - I've accompany the delegation for 2 days but need to take care of myself :

1. Jerry make a doctor appointment for me and have his car send me home .

2. I sleep for the whole night last night begin at 9:00 pm at living room coach 

3. Lost 1 km waight .

What I do ?

1. Share my " do right and do good " with the table I look after as South Garden.

2. Ask participant not to use smart phone while attend speech at Quata 

3. Take SEE interview - host is not well prepared and I am not in the mood to take the interview outside restaurant .

4. Share my observation to jerry 

- commitment and visitor don't qualify a tier one greeting and waste our resource 

- the organization is too large to know who comes for green purpose and who not 

- mix business owner / employee and org administration is not a good idea : you can hardly design program fit them all .

If I can't do it , how can I influence others to?

If I felt a little bit low and reluctant to connect people , or if I lost my appetize for hobby and not with passion on finding new thing , curious on many new learning , how can I convince others this will do you good ? Since it doesn't work in yourself ?

Minor / trivial and meaningful

1. Before saying goodbye at the bus station , sound told me do not visit him at university without notify him earlier 

- translation : it's time to let go .

2. The DVD Violet : before , human don't equip with jealousy and ambition , and the ending cut is too powerful to be ignore : there is no music now.

- translation : music is the catalyst with humality - and the grandchildren sing the song as legacy stay and spirit carries .

3. Softly speaking  to me Meiling please - people said its gratitude between couples - seniors : don't mean too cold to me.

- translation : it's not manapore , it's you demonstrate you are not really care, and the passion of love may die away.

4. Alexander birthday : family together , bad day won't be bad.

- translation : so - the lucky or not sentiment is a global language .

5. Sewage under tunnel construction : it late , delay and no way to deal with 

- translation : someone dig a hole in your front door and tell you there is no way to finish the work.

6. Old market reveal at a zone : a dream and inspiration Meiling told me :

- translation : don't fall in the operation detail otherwise you won't even bring up the idea - it's a good idea .

3 hours for a details Letter / update / follow up

If I don't depend decent time in doing / thinking , I won't feel I really complete a task and feel relax :

1. BRIEF : background / reasons / ideas / end / follow up 

2. Manage to connect key stakeholders 

3. A who do what by when tablet and highlight with BOLD font / COLOR Space 

4. Follow a text message or call to reiterate your intention for better communication .

5. Mark milestones at your calendar / smart device .

Subject of aging didn't go away

Decide goes to the movie " ocean street diary " with meiling this morning , after my bride stroll at NTU camp and finishing my SEE reading in front of a German bakery shop .

This is a little piece , deal with 4 leftover brothers born from 2 different mothers , light but grace - the elegance of dying peacefully is a main topic these days , and I can see in the near future , the theme will be much popular than today - the medical improvement and technology for extend human life is without any doubt , however how to maintain - sustain the equal level of mental health - mind health is quite a challenge to human beings .

The longer tour body stay , you require much healthier mind to handle the contrdition your body / mind balance . 

So the metaphor for balancing : dancing mode - set one foot on the ground and one foot in the air --- realize your mind can control the world but your body will ultimately buried under the ground .

We learn to accept . And we need go knew the imperfection is true to everyone , over the top / reaching the peak don't ment you will see the better scene . Accept it as Erwin yalon said " people will regret ultimately - for things we didn't do for things we have done "

Niche - mainstream : Nick and Little Wei

It's 88 connect us : miyoumi liaison and I met Nick / Wei this morning 

BRIEF:( background / reason / idea / end / follow )

1. Background : Nick from ic Design house who will join Wei to his space management firm next years , due to their passion in Jazz - they will do a seminar and bring Toku to taiwan 

2. Reason : how nitch can turn to mainstream ? My answer is no way but to develop jazz music to jazz ambience and attract more non Jazz fun. And the color / emotion to sound - I repeat what I learn from Evelyn and 3 sounds Ted talk 

3. Idea : mud bar can be an idea place for nitch jazz performance and we take action right after the conversation . 

4. End : check hui Shang pub which design by Wei - and we have mutual friend : Su Ko Chin and I am thinking of staying at Dao one day .

5. Follow : November JAzz seminar sync Toku concert .

Moog and sound

Moog inventor turn to sound capturer and his achive records thousands of sound , half of the bio sound no long exist today : 

3 sounds 

- nature : wind / wave 

- bio - all species 

- man made : other than music most of them are noise ..

A picture it greater than a word and a sound can create picture in you . 

My TED walk this morning and it's a reward / compensation 

- wake up early - do mounting climbing - connect nature - body stretch - listen and learning ( my TED Walk ) 

I did not ...

1. Fully engaged since I condense the workshop from 7 hours to 4 hours 

2. Enforce Everyone buy in and all in as only 2 of them attend : France and Eric 

3. Devote my Energy and influence all who present this morning .

4. Run through all the slides I prepared 

5. Tell good story to trigger the high interest to learn more .

6. Enjoy the season as much as before as I want to off the session as well. 

7. Demostrate a better mate or moderator during the session . 

8. Touch their heart but to tell them to follow their heart .

9. Respect what I do and performs a master mindset .

PK - self esteem and confidence

I really need to dig and to tell the difference and by the way : what's dignity ?

What's the points - highlight of yesterday

1. Jason : 

-help chi chi is the simply way to win her loyalty .

-goal alignment with key stakeholders 

-your position and people's expectation 

2. Hanes :

- good / bed vs Self / Others explain many things 

- self esteem make all the different .

3. Ceaser :

- vocal asia idea : application ( backing vocals ) vs mainstream ( super artist ) : little baseball league pride marketing for fund raising / micro financing for sustainable 

- chance to co - work on my book " the way of making friend )

- all investment turn to ash - handmade soup - etc 

4. Hubert :

- coaching for change is what he need 

- 3 major pitfal : no goal setting / reluctant to face challenge / don't know how to say no.

- continue my service and redirect to shelin development ( a zone ) 

5. Others 

- no deal with accton and how to support Aj ?

- change the transglobe workshop to one on one coaching ?

Good morning tap water hose

Bathroom faucet out of work for many years , I never try to check what make the water drop so slim ?

This morning , I unlock the faucet screw and learnt the Tap is blocked for 90% and this is why water can't come down smooth and strong .

I can't really fix the block since there is no tool and no replacement , but to take it out for now , water come normally .

This small change make me so happy .

What's the point ? I am so easy to be content .

3 persons tango

My second time challenge in deliver forum fundamental workshop to a very small group - total 3 include me.

You don't see a concert or theater last more than 3 hours , not to mentions a lecture morning and direct exercise in the afternoon .

I am not sure if process all slides will make it an experience for everyone and I don't know if to feed 7 hours of workshop to 2 person a good approach or not --- I should tell everyone that we don't trap in the rule and think out of box in deliver this workshop .

This is nothing to be with training fees and it really deplete many imaginations .

See how it goes , don't set expection and no expectation . 

90 minutes session in the morning

1. I can only make my reading by what's been feed to me.

2. It's a help rationale - if you don't buy in , you won't all in and there won't be any team.

3. You corner someone no matter intentionally or not - People will fight back no matter how.

4. Caught in between in diffident class but similar dilemma .

5. Do for right thing good - on business ; do the good thing right - on charity .

6. Leant the pattern : 

- G / B with S / O ( good or bad to oneself or others ) is creating wall .

- S / O including G / B ( self and others do have good and bad inside ) we explore boundary .

7. Try to understand dot line and solid line and how to report / inform with .

8. If you want to coach , you do need the coaches present themselves .

I did it this morning and it felt great

No to be impact by medication and joke it like " it's not Friday " 

We did it so harmony and I felt great .

Keep it up and self inspired .

It's been gone for 2 years

I am taking about money worries , not yet developed to money crisis - when receive KC's note about cash status - less than 1 millions NT and combine with current clients situation , I can sense the worry is approaching .

But I like what hevan founders bio said of it come from Jung : all sychological sythdrom come for lack of confidence or self esteem - with confidence , you buy yourself time to think and act .

Jack share how he talk to James Wey trigger me - you have to be in the ocean to identify the stream - sit and wait end up nothing .

Action ?

1. Check forum works cash and biz status with KC 

2. Re calculate my personal wealth and legend how it can turn to cash speedy 

3. Biz develop with old and new friends 

4. Controls and reduce my spending now 

5. Development on ocean opportunity .

The challenge

6677 well accepted my idea of putting " challenge " as a new routine to our forum and the first experience is so mixed , some are exciting and some are merisible , and the funny thing is what my idea shooting me back - and the backlash is event greater than anyone's imagination .

 Base on my ethical prinspal and family value, the end game is clear to me.  I will fail my challenge anyhow , it's not an out of comfort zone or gaining another experience believe - so I fails my challenge, I didn't disappointed myself but maybe other forum mate .

 I like the way how we connected last night and it's a good take home for me : 

NEVER TRY IT AT HOME IF YOU CAN'T understands the results . 

With lobo society hungchu

As expected , airplane delay for 90 minutes , and we run into a serious turbulence .

Landed and check out by 3:20 a new model of Mercedes Benz with driver waiting .

Arrived in hotel where bobo book for me , a little bit refresh and headed for west lake dinner .

West lake walk is so nice , before everyone arrive, I managed to take 30 minute walk and image the old Tang Dynasty life.

I design 3 question for the dinner , I want go bring value to any gathering :

1. The question to yourself .

2. Question to anyone on the table and had his / her answer 

3. Question to roger 

It went out too well that a structure conversation become a forum ambience and everyone had his take home value 

Who I saw last night : bobo / Yi Hwand and his wife who we spend another 90 minutes at another tea house for her marriage experience sharing / Li Wei / old Tsao / Hui Kai / old mo / old pig - who I suppose to meet in Beijing but end up here .

Cha chen send me a very touch message , I am so thrill go connect them so deeply .

Long conversation with Meilijg last night

I turn off the tv and face to her and begin to talk , share with her how the movie " tour de force " Infuence on me and the artical " I want to die at 75 " trigger me to think more - about life and about the quality of living alive .

The voice keep echo in my head these days is Steve Jobs's famous lecture , and the line which impact me the most is" knowing you going to die is to let you know you should follow your heart , there is nothing to lose " - why I get a strong feeling these days ? Is tpo outing ? Or the 2 triggers ( tour de force & article )?

I then share with her I want to sign on the " no aggressive / intrusive rescue " statement and we lead our conversation to do we really poor ? Yes , we don't have much cash on hand - but the house can easily sold and leave us 30-40 millions NT balance - if we need 1.5 millions / year for basic living , without any income we can survive for at least 30-25 years , not to count in my insurance saving and retirement solder health care . 

If we do need to concern is elder paternal potential spending on prolong life need , if we do only the basic - we can do it also   For kids - support fruit for another 3 years and sounds for another 4 years require my stable income for the next 5 years - to actively seeking opportunity until 2020 is what my family calling and this is clearly not only life model but survive model .

Taking care of myself , don't let me become the burden of family is essential now and I finally realize what Samuel  share with me on new wide workshop .

It's a good talk - you need to be honest with yourself before facing challeng in life . 

Why behave like a theft at home ?

At age of 80, I don't think you miss any good thing in life - no work , no worries and no house works since your daughter in law join the family 25 years ago .

But why ? Act like a theft ? When we bought thing back home , you will sneak and steal and hide it somewhere in your closet , why ? If you really want the sweet or anything , you can simply tell me , I am more than happy to buy you a big portion , but please , when see me bring things home , leave at lease half of the staff to other family members , don't be too selfish that cause no one really want to take care of you of your facing the incapable stage .

We leader door for family members, we keep the light on for the late home menber , please do 

What's on my mind ?

1. Leonard Cohen about the Poland verb : prey once for go to war ; twice for out for sea , 3 times before getting marry 

2. Chang Hui : the moment I sang one line , it deduct one line I am going to sing in life . Finish one show , It's a minus to me - pressure to be NOW.

3. Unleash the chain on elephant- what's one you elephant Roger ?

4. Tour de force :

- challeng on your routine and mates

- who you will invite to the terminal journey ( trip )?

- assistant suicide and .....

5. Social / empathy robot : what's been take away from human ?

6. The memories is NOW : you can't really know what memories is real and what's your imagination or creation .

7. Ebola : the true grief is not able to touch your beloved face for the last time 

8. You deal with many relationship : and to understands you : contact - resonate - inclusive .

9. 3 some :

- someone to call : happiness survey 

- something to achieve : frank vikol and the story of " art of living foundation " - guru chi ( violent free world - market ; stress free world - mags trend )

10. Why you are here ? By stander ? Participat? Observer ? Do we need a reasone to be somewhere?

11. Why I want to die on 75 : the glory sunset and the doctor / professor ( prolong life is not prolong living quality )

Breakfast information

I decided to move me seat and closer to the group - and with the physical move , information flows :

1. Man's group : 

- someone won 120.000 plus nt from the Majung games 

- Tsai running nose blood and call ambulance to club house and send him back to his hospital in Taipei.

- they all familiar with one non tpo member : ah queue 

- I don't know who little fish is but she's been mentioned many round .

- wengo play 18 years of golf non stop when he run hp taiwan and he woke up 4:30 am everyday 

- yuang and Tsai and I do having the same Anti blood cluster medicine 

- bento run his company as hard （ or even harder ) then before and he told me its only a paradigm shift 

- chi Wei ask if I can join the event planning team for tpo

- da shung over his 70th want to reshape his forum 

- make yang develop diebet and performing injection at the dinner table by himself 

- Hilo dare to ask private life about mark

- hung from NET don't know me and yes , this is the second time we meet 

Lady group 

- Men wen ask why Meilijg is not here ?

- Harry's wife pass cancer treatment for 8 years 

- paddy ( wengo wife ) is a Majung beginner 

- yung's wife ask him to relax life , have more life 

Why you are here ?

You don't play golf , you don't play card , you don't play majung , why are you here ?

Do I need to answer it ? Or do I need to feel iratated ? 

How to be yourself sounding by many not your kind or circle of life ? Do I need to feel isolated ?

What life we live the same ? And why life we live differently? 

Those who value me , can anyone sepcficly describe my value ? 

How to escalate nice to have to must have ? How mental Health can be as important as physical health ? 

Who wins in the end ? Those who finish early ( running game ) or standing still ( fighting game ) or get more scores ( ball games ) 

What's my introspection now ? What's my self awareness now ? What I see myself 

Anger in me

1. The irresponsible sound and bad mouth to his mother 

2. The terrible taxi driver : to old and risk driver 

3. The awful road construction company : not only delay the working day but take no responsibility to the damage done to the road , not to mention all the neighbors pay extra parking fees for thousands more .

4. Event responsible : procrastinating 

Elephant

Unleash the chain of elephant :

- what invisible chain that refrain us from moving forward ?

- why can't really break the intangible chain ?

- why momories play such a vital role and trapped us ?

- think what's the chain on me ?

Elephant song:

- who is rachel ? What happen to her ?

- why michael make such a lie ? Only for getting more chocolate ?

- why wait for mother die need to put into  mental hospital ? 

 Why I am feeling moody after seeing elephant song ? 

75 kg today

This result really dilute my passion in many directions and my self awareness and actions are :

1. Cancel my afternoon coaching session 

2. Complain about sister in law never delivers an OK house keeping job and took monthly pay from me.

3. Don't have Enegy to do mountain climbing 

4. Can't really strike my own balance - dancing .

5. Want to eat still ... 

6. Overall down in my mental status  

Happy 50 Meilijg

1. I read our love letter 32 years ago 

2. I share this story to Stiven when doing our coaching 

3. We went for " withdraw scares " at an Tao temple together with sound 

4. Taste keeling temple bazaar and ate pig foot for birthday celebration. 

5. We eat small cake 

6. We watch the DVD rent by sound " Pride " 

It's her 50's birthday. 

The letter

I found the letter at study room , it dated 1983, must be my very early love letter to meiling . On her birthday today , I read it again and I realized we love each other very much then.

Then it trigger me to think about the song Layla - Eric Clapton wrote to George Harrison's wife and my thinking ripples - Leonard Cohen hulalua and many singer sing for those who they love ..

Why " don't stop believing " cause interest by others and why my eye ware be the new focal point ?

I thought about James Wei and I appreciate fermi who donate 100.000 to my credit of doing good things .

More than 90 sign up for " talents fly " I am really happy ....

And accton response bothering me : but I should do what I want to do.

Sam's call me back means a lot - comfort most of my uncertainty about down payment to Steve Vai ..

Jeremy resign throwing a stone to my CFF plan and so this is it...