Walking out of house in fast pace

I don't know how to walk side by side with mom so when learning we are about to leave home at the same moment , I push myself and walk faster pace then usual .

Down the small hill to the Main Street , as usual , I will see the mansion house keeper at the door and as usual , we will greet each other with a nod and smile - normally I did it first - I perform the routin this morning as well - even on a quick pace to keep more distance with my mom.

This is a strange feeling - nice to others but reluctant or feel uncomfortable to do it for my family - I don't feel peace and I don't have a solution ( or don't want to do anything about it )