2015年9月6日 星期日

Long conversation with Meilijg last night

I turn off the tv and face to her and begin to talk , share with her how the movie " tour de force " Infuence on me and the artical " I want to die at 75 " trigger me to think more - about life and about the quality of living alive .
The voice keep echo in my head these days is Steve Jobs's famous lecture , and the line which impact me the most is" knowing you going to die is to let you know you should follow your heart , there is nothing to lose " - why I get a strong feeling these days ? Is tpo outing ? Or the 2 triggers ( tour de force & article )?
I then share with her I want to sign on the " no aggressive / intrusive rescue " statement and we lead our conversation to do we really poor ? Yes , we don't have much cash on hand - but the house can easily sold and leave us 30-40 millions NT balance - if we need 1.5 millions / year for basic living , without any income we can survive for at least 30-25 years , not to count in my insurance saving and retirement solder health care . 
If we do need to concern is elder paternal potential spending on prolong life need , if we do only the basic - we can do it also   For kids - support fruit for another 3 years and sounds for another 4 years require my stable income for the next 5 years - to actively seeking opportunity until 2020 is what my family calling and this is clearly not only life model but survive model .
Taking care of myself , don't let me become the burden of family is essential now and I finally realize what Samuel  share with me on new wide workshop .
It's a good talk - you need to be honest with yourself before facing challeng in life . 

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