My responsiblity and future role

I don't know why the Chinese New Year's overseas trip will be the querrel point between me and Meiling? as she said that she knew it will end up this way - by the last moment, I will say NO to her,but I don't know why she said I am the tirest and hard working person who support the family, but willing to spend 300.000 NT for a " must but not from my viewpoint " decision? we didn't have big fight, but she is not happy and always lead to her narrow thinking, will it be problem to me? I don't know, but it's a problem to her : since this is a Fact - I am now working on my own and earn every penny with my effort. to support this family ain't easy, and she knew that to please my parent wasn't a right thing to do, or to put it this way, not a right moment / timing to do - we have no money, if the 300.000 can be saved, we may have additional 3 months living allowance, so, why we MUST spend it this way?, this is a big Why to me? anothe behavior , or she forget in the early days, we spending money to buy the intimacy from my parent to her, but it's all in vain, at that time, we afford to do it, but today, the overall family financial situation won't allow me to enjoy this luxury, why the old habit come to hit us again, this is why I can't understand.
But I am much mature than before, it doesn't impact so much on my dairy routines, this morning, the breakfast coaching / discussion session is good for both me and Steve, I think to bring him to Randy and Ming's project is good - a high level consultant for Education and Training Consulation market in China is vital for us.
Esoterism weekly meeting go as usual, not much touch upon detail or to raise sharp questions in between, I am thinking to add or reduce question is good or bad? but I did tell every founder that I enjoy the moment with them and wish to develop a personl coaching time with them on monthly basis. should consider to do it now. as next monthly meeting conflict with my Warsaw schedule. I am asking for a postpone date, hope it works for everyone.
Eric Tseng call and invited me for the training on Feb. 3/4/5/- the 3rd Regional Mandarin Forum retreat training, I set the schedule with Eric next Tuesday to go over the overall Retreat itinerary - now the training commitment is growing. I should do it as better as possible.