Beijing and Yung Chin

Today is Yung Chin Day, I suppose to write an article for keep this day of memory a fresh one. like build a routine of memory chain, keep her with me always. however, I am kind of lost somewhere, yes, this is exacatly the word I used in some occation. why the feeling of fear hit me slightly, althought this is slightly, but I can sense that this is a similar feeling which impact me on varies career change, now I should honestly write it down, write down what feelings bothers me now: 1. Lack of capital : the money to support my business development and even worst, the money to keep the family in a quality of life 2. Instable income : as facilitor to YPO, I can only wait for the calling, not to do any marketing activity for gaining what I can predict,and it result to a unstable cash flow. 3. Business uncertainty : no matter this is happen in China or Taiwan, to go for the coaching business or consultant business, the yes and no comes not as you expected.Engage, Investigae, Contract and Deliver service took me quite a long time. 4. Working alone in China : yes, I don't have a strong confidence to work in Beijing if there's no proven business activity there, how to systematic and re-organized myself is the key to get rid of this feeling. 5. Mix feeling about marriage : W do throw a big stone in the pond, how to respone but not react to my turbulance life? I must admit that until it comes, you will never know how good you have prepered. this apply to me, no matter how hard I share with coachee what James Cameron inspired me with the quote " Fail is an option, but Fear Not ". when is comes, it will test how strong you are facing new challenge. Chung Hwa's wedding song become a messy disastar, Antonio make his point and cleary education me how he grew in China, Now I am in the middle of handling all the dirty jobs, a good intention turn to a bad result, this is a lesson to learn, if you are only help, bridge it and leave the party go their own way, if you want to stick on any party, make yourself clear before any good intention probe. Monita is coming to Taipei again, on her own this time and will meet 2 of my introuduced company, do I feel that I am used? I don't know, since I didn't make any statement about what I want to be, it's hard to convince any party my role in the game. this is why Meiling said about me all the time. Far East Universty ; Teck Art Group ; and many others. What I should do next ? 1. Caculate the money I need for family and business, come up with a 3 senerios and beging to collect money you need by : your own insuranct loan, borrowing from friend, take project for investment. 2. Do an incomes stream projection in next 6 months 3. Set the business goal and client list and schedule your visit 4. Prepare yourself for living in China. 5. Keep Body / Mind and Soul in a balance situation. I should write an article for Yung Chin, this happen once in my life, I should not hide away from it.