End of a relationiship - memory in Sep. 7

Place : Bitan lake side walk, time : pm 7:00, people : C&R. how come : as I know the relationship couldn't last forever and the consequnce or impace is getter larger and larger, it must be ended as soon as possible.
yes, it hurt, if not for the real feeling, I won't disclosed on my blog, it's been almost 100 days, just about the time I decided to go my own way, to find my way to the ultimate good - yes, love or caring give me strength, but at the same time, it distract me from many aspect, my belive in telling people I coached - especially those top elite and leaders that how we should " Walk the talk ", and to probe what I mentioned to C as the main reason : when identify myself as the Master / Teacher to others, I should do it right, do it good, the unbalance mind tremble my heart for quite sometimes, the last stawb to trigger my " Let's call it an end " messsage was from the " Responsiblity " - who should take the responsibilty afterall, I am not in the position and will not be the position to response for another life who can't leaglly claim her rights-- it hurt, as this is real.
First 24 hours after the so call - breaking up relationship, I am a little bit confused, but I keep in a restricted rule, never ever making any initial contact. yest, time fly and time is the best remedy, we know it, she knew it, I knew it. let it go and let it flow.
I will keep the memory in my heart and take it as a strengh of blessing all the time, as I told her on last good bye : ( yes, this is not a see you later ) , to best way to love each other is to keep a good shape of oneself. this is the turth and lie I am going to follow all the way.
doing 2 training agreement and sen it over yesterday : GENIUS and New Wide, don't know what will follow after, but I am confortable with the quotation sent, not to compare with market price as I am not in the game of pricing war and will not trap myself to this uncomfortable situation, what I will do is to make believe the value I bring to the corporation will be higher then anyone's expectaion and hopefully to bring the sustainable change for executives.. yes, this is the goal and the cost I know they are willing to pay.
invite Juregue to csr community office for the product designe and deliveray discussion. Celine is so good about compelte my role and to complementary fullfill the missing link between my one way thinking, I am glad to have her with us. as for Juregue, my advise to him is not to invest too much time on the pass, or to put himself in the enviroment where he won't grow and learn diary. he is a smart young man, should understand what I said. I will wait for the final call from GENIUS before asked his final decision.
CKC team building won't be a easy task, 20-30 of their senior management have participate on Life Academay training / developing before, they know and familar with all the process and gimmick a best trainer can do - so, on the reverst side, never ever think you can out perform 2 master at Life Academay class, but to be a best-fit facilitators at the 6 hours campaigan. not so easy.
going to Horrible Bosses the second time, you see, this is the job a beloved have to perform- twice for a good manner, sometimes the excitement will gone and you lost the momentum of " wait to be surprised ", yes, I am doing the right thing, not easy.
Movie on Sunday with meiling - that's Lars Von Teer's new film - dealing about the Amanganda - a totally new view to the end of the world. I enjoy it very much, yes, I did.
and Lin Yu Tung's documentry kept me thinking hard, keep this in mind: 人必有痴，而後有成