Earlier blogger and today

following are earlier blog I wrote when blog was block somewhere:

2 days to remember

Today, June 25^th,2012, marks the 25^th anniversary of my marriage with Meiling – from the day we don’t have a why married, but walked hand in hand to the public accreditation house for announcing husband and wife – for 4 people on the scene, James Chang and Tom Chang were no longer good friend of mine. And we keep our marriage still, even through we were having a family difficulty to overcome together – well, I put Together aside as this is a one way thinking, not a consensus yet. It’s been 25 years since we married. No vows and no promise, I don’t know what keep our marriage still – Love, I really doubt it these days, appreciation and gratitude? Maybe, but I am not 100% sure.

Toda, June 25, 2012, 4 years after I conduct my first invade surgery, place a stent on my left artery exactly 4 years ago. On 2008, I was lucky detected the artery problem founded by Dr. Chen and urgently perform this surgery. It’s like a re-born to me and I have no idea how it impact me until now. It gave me a good reason to resign from LCPC – a place I am not passion with nor happy to work with. Since then, I am more approach to identify who I am instead of What I do. It pave the road to be coach and facilitator , it’s hard to keep the living standard, but it give me a new skill to develop and become an independent service provider – coach after professional manager lead to a door more open.

  Today, I received text message from Daniel Y. who in China support me in identify my next venture and urge me to think what’s crisis ahead and kindly enough to ask my bank account – lending me money for the transition struggle I am facing. But I hav’t heard from him since forward my bank account and it pass the deadline of needed, I checked with a follow up message, not response still, I am a little bit disappointed but there’s nothing to complain with, Daniel flew to Taipei, drove all the way to Tainan and support me to defend my rights in front of M. and willing to discuss my business plan with me… what you can asked more? If no financial aide at this point, should not be the break-up point unless Daniel take his position this way. All the questions in mind come to an end since received his message today, he was sick and he asked my bank account again – the swift code – I am so touched again.. what can we asked more?

 Today in the morning, I receive mail from Matthew, when sent the friendship is greater than anything mail to him, he solve his own problem and I feel relax also. Matthew update me Mr. Allison’s health condition. When learn some of his difficulty from Mark Chen, I decided to make the call and not to let the friendship sours.. we wish to talk and we will find a good space to reconnect.

 I review Martin’s work from FB – He is actually a facilitator – via music to connect with audience and with God – he must be a great facilitator I believe.

 Today, I made love with Meiling in the early morning, I havn’t have sex for a period of time, after the love making, I realize today is our 25^th anniversary in marriage and my 4^th years after surgery.

 I have another relax afternoon to perform a “ I am alive “ session and I deliver what I will do with Ambassador Hotel Group with full confidence – I am ultimately get the coaching deal – and according to Angeli – a short and sweet session.

 2 days before… the day I managed to perform a qualified facilitator during the final judging panel at 23^rd Golden Melody Award – among 20 professionals, I don’t have chance to use my golden vote , not even once. All the consensus were built within 3 rounds of voting – what I did:

1. re-state the etheric and honest protocol

2. promote the full discussion before voting:

- if anyone volunteering to begin, let the ball roll

- if none of the panel willing to speak out . pick the person to open sharing or guiding first

- manage time and emotion

- Keep the long meeting a fun and interested session

- show my appreciation all the time

- on the latter and critical moment – remind how our decision impact on Key Stakeholders at large

By 6:00 pm, we were line up outside Little Dome – the stadium held the award ceremony, I am the Panel in General, so, I am obliged or honored to walk the red carpet with Minister of Culture – Miss Long Yi Tai – a new minister and new dept since May 20^th. Yes, there are spot lights on my almost bold head. Long have one wish – don’t let me fall, she asked if I have the experience – my answer is , yes, once in my wedding. It rains hard, but all the camera capture us..

 It’s a good show on the ceremony event. Excellent production and great outcome – I don’t really mind how others see the finalist of the best male / female vocal, best album and best new talent. The consensus were built already and the judging system improve year by year. There is a break during the live broadcasting and I have my another 90 seconds of famous. MC Tain Shin asked my how was the panel session going.. I came out with only 3 sentence :

n  Judges were fully discussion before voting

n  The consensus for the final result is very high

n  Judges have high comment on all the participant and the music they deliver last year.

I am not sure how it goes with the media collective interview – by 10:00 pm, I am escort to deliver the final outcome before end of the ceremony, yes, since I am the only one ( other than GIO staff ) who obtain the result, I am responsible to answer question from the media.. I think I have done a better way to explain how the process goes and what goes right and nothing related to personal or bias – if there’s bias, it’s a group bias and it’s based on the rule / regulation and the works which apply for the award challenge.

 Some said I look handsome from TV , some said I am great from Newspaper, I am not care about any critic about panel or result, and it’s a gone thing.

 2 days to remembers, My re-born day and 25^th anniversary ; The 23^rd GMA and the reclaim under spot light

For today:

I spend 6 hours at City Library yesterday, this is a good record to maintain, there are many periodical and good book to read - it's free and air-conditioned. I done one Bloomberg business week and finish reading 3 interesting books - one book who take the title of : Mind leadership , a good title yet not a very good writing, but I managed to read some chapter - get to know a few people's story who I am not familiar before, such as : Milea - the female anthropologist , Oppreheim who lead the Manhatton project and ended WW2 - with the atomic bomb , the young Chicago University President and John Pole 23. from the book : True Believer - about mass movement - Eric is a genius to introduce how the mass movement take place and the basic rule for such a movement - from religion / nationalism and social-political perspective, what Eric said touch me are:

1. If what you don is least important, you will do others

2. If you are not good at what you do, you are kind of helping others do their job, in this fashion, people won't laugh at you.

3. Most of the time, True Believer come from the pool of Frustrate r  

call Sound by 6 pm and asked his where about, he was at home after the short bicycle ride. we have a plan to go to movie, but he wish to eat the Eggplant Curry before going to movie. why not? bring him for his dream dinner - deep fly pork rib with curry source, since the restaurant offers all you can eat steam rice , my Sound take 3 and third / quarter rice plate, what a big stomach, no wonder he can't fit the new pant his mom bought for him.

  we went for " The Amazing Spider man ", this is not on our viewing list, however, due to the showing time constrain, we give up the Lincoln - Vampire Hunter , to our surprise, this is a good film, pretty much like a pre-story of Spider Man.

 Fruit went for temp job yesterday, at a breakfast cafe, she brought home a little dog - name Cubie , a 45 days Marchess , as we will be away for month, she will independently work and accompany her new pet.

 James wire the 100.000 RMB - I don't know when but find it out yesterday, sent him a thank you note , his response were so touch: we all love you... I should make the best of the fund my Forum brothers support. and Daniel wire his first 1 millions NT as well, found it on Friday 29th. another favor I can't get over with. Daniel said another 1 millions will arrive shortly.

 EMBA dinner at 4-Known Hall - a city hideaway restaurant, only 4 shows up, 2 Vincent , 1 Kevin and 1 Veneassa , the talk is endless, I don't even need to create any ice breaker. Superman Chen over order our food and over-charge us. this is not the way to treat friend, right? I will less recommend this restaurant.

 Friday morning, spending all morning with csr team in regard to the " Forum Style " peer group set up. I still don't know what's on Celine's mind: to use some of the allocation time and space from the lady boss, or to use up some of my talent? get rid of Kim and have her to join my team? what? I hardly can describe, however, I don't mind. I should focus on now and future - as Marshall Goldsmith said : Creating the Future you, not the remembered you nor the stereotype you.