Self reflection

1. Why I am cold for Black Gold ? If he need to be relocate to animal shelter and put down one day ?

2. Why so many lucid dreams these nights ? With weapon and blood 

3. Why feeling less on the breaks up ? Am I aim for physical pleasure merely ?

4. Why Meiling mentions I seldom look at my father's eyes when he told me his feeling and fact ? 

5. Why I can't get rid of fruits bad mouth and inats conversation