Living spirit

This really bothers me - she repeatly telling me this , not a story telling but a reflection of " how I aware my becoming insane ... " body can tell the spirit floating our and keep murmuring on the same subject ., and the theme is about me ..

 What if my rejecting of her love turn out to be a sad story - course someone mad ? Or losing her mind or dremativlly altering her life ... How can I afford to take it ? 

 Yes , this is really bothering me , I google and can't find the solution , keep it that way ? Or walk this way ? 

 It don't mean I don't like / love her.  Love is not to compare not compete .. This is not a question of how long - but how much we can take ?