Self awareness

Why I feel angry when receive Fruit ask for her weekly allowance 2 days earlier ?

Because I rationalize all her wrong behavior and sum up to this unpleasant mood .

I have a impulse emotion to react , challenge her way of spending money and do nothing for her family . And further more , I want to educate her if money is not enough , she better work part time and earn her living like many other young adult .

And the 3rd reason is a complex with Miao Zen : as I have some current against it , fruit follow this cult and not able to deliver what a family thinks is better . So ... I am upset .

 I omit what I plan to write and take a stance of " read it but not response " . And she send another line chat ask if tomorrow I will do it as routine . I response with a yes . As simple as that and all the unpleasant mode stays within my mind .. And this is my reflection .