Triggers

When met at Wonderful Theatre, I am about to finish my tele communication with Sang .
She sit and told me : I am going to do my eyes again , doctor propose 2 option , injunction every 3 months with fees or 2 stitches for free . When my response is : injections even though I disagree with either way . She emotionally told me she want to do the stitches and what to do it now and told me doctor said after 15 days of micro operation, everything will back to normal .
I am not happy about the repeating performing micro surgery to her face and last time , the disastrous experience want leave any lesson to her .. why , I lost my mood for movie and dinner and ask her send me to the paper printing lab .
In the car , I said to her :
1. Love is not in the face , is my love is to her face , we should not keep our relationship this way .
2. Confidence ? Compare to those not fortune enough people, why you are asking so much?
3. No one is perfect , don't let the appearance overtaking our value
4. No one can remain Beauty when grow old , when you will prepare for it ?
5. Don't discuss this topic with me because my comments never been seriously considered.

Her response make me mad :
1. You don't understand me ? Again , this is her opening
2. The imbalance of 2 eyes make me uncomfortable? Who can really tell the difference?
3. I am doing it because you ask me to go out social with you ? Count my fingers , how many times you happily join my so call " social event " ?
4. I don't like your friend or circle , thinks about it , you don't want to go out work my friends also ? Have you ever inviting me ? Each time you go out with them. You come back and complain about it : not in the same environment, same mindset etc .

I have to get off now before our emotion arose high , I am not going to call first and will begin to " love myself " until you honestly send me apology - I mean seriously apologize.


Roger