It's a bed feeling this morning

I waited for intimacy last night in Bangkok as it's our last night stay , but it didn't happen and we woke up early this morning and I openly asked , but she didn't response or ignored my invitation.
The feeling is bad , I went to rest room and do it myself.
I tried to behave normal after , but it's hard , I can do it my own or to buy my own pleasure , as this is not I want ..
How to handle feeling like this : it's not retaliation, but my slow in intimacy response is inevitable.
I am writing the blog while we are having breakfast together , she tried to please me as I can sense , however my feeling is bad .


Roger