My feelings is : not comfortable

Am I too rely on Meiling or am I too focus on my own feeling .
Not home often , the mentality I have is as I am home , Meiling will love to spend more time with me and stay with me as long as possible . But recently I found this is only my wishful thinking. Even I am home alone in the evening , she always have a pulse to go out and showing at the gym , actually , I don't mind she enjoy the time with herself , but to count the time I am really " Home " ( I mean in Taiwan and not working outside ) is not much , she can always enjoy her time to the gym , her circle of friends .
And every time when went to gym at night , she stayed for hours and won't return home before 11:00 pm, this is what I can't really understand, I am home and about to sleep and I still wait for her long bathing outside ?
These are what contributes my feeling of uncomfortable..


Roger